princess-peachie:

Sleepin’ with the bae tonight

My favorite lolita is a lovely. SO HAPPY~

princess-peachie:

Sleepin’ with the bae tonight

My favorite lolita is a lovely. SO HAPPY~

silmarildust:

catgirl2525:

Cute baby otters!

baby animals will kill me i swear to god

rnyspacing:

MR. PRESIDENT

Decided to use my whiteboard to write down my life goals. I used to use it as a to-do list board, but I feel that this is more important. But maybe I should get a bigger one… Wish I had the wall space. #lifegoals #inspiration

Decided to use my whiteboard to write down my life goals. I used to use it as a to-do list board, but I feel that this is more important. But maybe I should get a bigger one… Wish I had the wall space. #lifegoals #inspiration

I’m lacking self-confidence.

As some of you may know, I’ve had mono for 2 weeks now. I’ve only ever been out of the house 3 times. And it’s driving me nuts. I’m reaching my low right now. I feel so depressed and not sure if I’ve ever felt this depressed. Earlier I was already disappointed that I was missing a FREE Ninja Sex Party concert at Petco Park in San Diego, and then I find that they also performed my FAVORITE Starbomb song. I actually cried a bit and tried to make myself feel better by watching nice YouTube videos. So I watched a few Mortem3r videos, and I eventually thought, “I wanna be as successful as her, but I doubt I will because I’m never motivated to try.” That’s when I discovered that my main problem in my life is that I don’t believe in myself. I don’t believe I would ever find a well-paid job that I’d like, I don’t believe I’ll lose enough weight to not be considered overweight, and I especially don’t believe that I would find the love of my life, get married, and have a family. I really hate myself right now for having zero confidence in myself. Feeling this way is giving me suicidal thoughts, and I really want to talk to someone, but I don’t like talking to strangers over the phone (another flaw I really hate about myself), so a hotline wouldn’t work; I can’t talk to my mom because then SHE would feel unhappy because I’M unhappy (I accidentally sneaked a peak at my mom’s most recent journal entry, and she’s been writing about me and my mono and how it’s keeping me from doing much and that I’m not putting much effort into finding a job); I can’t talk to my dad because he seems to always say the wrong things and he’d complain about my therapy bills; and I can’t talk to my sister because she gets annoyed with things like this and, to be honest, I’ve never talked to her about stuff like this, so I’m afraid of how she would react. I know I’m great at knitting, crocheting, illustrating, and other artsy stuff, but I can’t help but think about the possibility of those skills going nowhere. I can’t remember the last time someone requested a commission from me, and I’m not motivated enough to push myself out there to get recognized and gain more commissions. Plus, now that I’m feeling like this, I don’t even feel like doing any of it. Another thing that bugs me is that I have fallen SO HARD for Danny Sexbang that I can’t be attracted to ANYONE else, thus I won’t enter the dating world because no one but Danny can BE Danny. I’ve never felt this way about ANYBODY, not even Tom Hiddleston. He’s just too damn cute, too damn smart, too damn funny, too damn handsome, too damn SEXY. If you know me well, one of the things I fear most is ending up alone for the rest of my life, and unless by some miracle I actually end up with him, that WILL be my future. And I’m terrified. I legitimately live up to my name, which means “having to be loved,” “deserving to be loved,” “worthy of love,” or “she who must be loved.” Hell, I’m a HUGE fan of the Queen song Somebody to Love. I’d have times where I actually believe I’d have a chance, and others where I feel like my heart has disappeared. I dunno what else to say, but I can REALLY use someone to talk to right now.

stillabrit:

(Going to hide in a corner now). ;)

qtmaster:

what am i doing? oh you know…

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just listening to some music on good ol’ spoofy

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